So I started a new blog basically because i couldn't find my other one. I like writing when im sad, angry, tired, or bored, hence i made one now. You can pick and choose which emotion you think i am the most, because i am pretty much all of them, for different reasons.

I'm sad because if I would be at the "coordinates" i would like to be at, my life would be a lot different. Like, better different. Theres a few different places i would rather be, but there is this one place that has been on my mind a whole lot lately. How could i be so unlucky as to not have been put in the place with the one person that i have so much in common with...that would be perfect for me..? My biological clock is so fucked up its not even funny. I think about this guy and how much i wish i could be around him, and how much i wish i could talk to him every day, and just be THERE. I wish i could stop, because it's awfully depressing. =( If maybe i would have been born 2 years earlier where he is, i would be there, and know him so well, and probably be his best friend possibly more. How in the hell did i get stuck here apparently looking at him through this glass cage that it feels like i will nevver EVER get out of? GOSH! The only thing i seriously want is to meet him. I would give up all the new clothes i bought today, my ipod, my cell phone, and everything else that doesnt really mean anything to me, to meet him, which apparently means a lot to me. Its not like im jumping into anything. I dont do that. I just want to be his friend =) and be closer. Like I said, just talking to him finally in person would make me happy. It just seems like we will never get a chance to hang out. =( It makes me think of a The Starting Line song ha. Well just a verse in the song.

something keeps on getting in the way
between you and I on summer holiday yeah
just wait one minute more
cause my heart is halfway torn
and youre already gone
youre already gone



yep. anywayz where was i?


So maybe im "chasin the ghost of a good thing" or what not. Idk. but what i DO know. I'm the unluckiest person with the worst freaking timing, that i have ever seen, in my entire life. So yea. I guess ill be coming back soon with another stupid blog that no one will probably read. So bye for now, its awfully late.

<3